Spring Break starts today.

Friday, March 18, 2011
9:03PM

Got up, planned my lesson for today, which was surprisingly easy today. It often takes me two hours to plan a one hour lesson. Today it took thirty minutes, so that is nice.

I got the news from Spain last night, as I already posted on Facebook, that I have been accepted to the program to teach English for one year at the University of Valladolid. It´s bittersweet. I´m thrilled for the opportunity, but it's hard to leave people, especially John and my sick grandma. My parents don't know yet that I applied. I just wanted to have it all set up before I went to the pains of explaining what was going on. I have surprisingly few details, and had even fewer earlier and didn't want to have to answer questions. Plus, I generally feel perturbed at the ambiguity in life, so to have to analyze the ambiguity with others just makes me... anxious. I hope they'll be happy about this. My grandma will be sad, and that will hurt my heart, but I think I have to do this. I feel handicapped in the Spanish language, but I'm not going to say I suck. I've learned it entirely in West Virginia, nowhere else. Given that, I'd say I do pretty well. However, it's never been a language I was dependent on, so I do struggle. I want to be fluent, and this is how I can do it. I don't want to wake up every morning with a lot of regrets, so despite the difficulty of leaving people for a year, I'm just going to have to do it. And I am excited. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity.

So last night was Bollywood rehearsal. I had such a blast. I had to miss the first rehearsal, because I was working on two presentations over the weekend. So... as far as formations went, I had no idea where I needed to be. And it was like, "Casie, run!... Casie... over here!" Lol, reminded me of marching band. Formations were always the last thing I learned, and I just followed the herd. Somehow, it worked out. Idk, this has been a good opportunity working on this performance. Just another one of those things in life that has just magically fallen into my lap. I'm not sure where we're performing this, or in front of whom. I don't care. I just want to dance and maybe make a few friends in the process. Toward the end of the rehearsal I got a little more insight as to how much they're wanting to do with this when I saw the costumes, lol. I currently have a red dress in my car that I'm borrowing from another woman I just met, lol. And it's been really good, too, because everyone involved is very cooperative. There are no divas. I'm just enjoying it for what it is, and I don't even know exactly what that is, lol. It's a charmed life.

Wednesday night I went to Gibbie's with Joe. We met up with Isaiah, Andy, Carman, Carly, Sally and her boyfriend. It was a good sized group for me... we could all fit at one table. I was really pumped that Carly came out and had fun with us. She and I did a karaoke version of "All that Jazz," so that was pretty spectacular. We are both insane/dorky enough to go all out Vaudeville with it. I enjoyed just being with friends, too. I miss the shindiggers especially, and I feel like Isaiah and Andy have generally been people I could connect with for conversation.

So yeah... Spain. Bollywood. Karaoke and friends. I'm lying in bed quite sore from my workout on Wednesday followed by the Bollywood rehearsal... four hours including the class... last night. But I have a week off from school now, and that makes me feel amazing. I have been needing it sooooooooooo badly! I don't think I'll do much work over the break, perhaps start working on a paper for Ferreras, but I really need some time to cool my jets. I'm glad to be getting it and to get to see Miss Mammaw.

Better get ready. Advising appointment at 11:30.

Peace.