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Sunday, February 6, 2011
9:28AM

Just got up and still haven't even made it out of bed. Writing this to excuse myself so that I don't spend the whole day freaking out about how behind I am. Today I am supposed to read a novela and 5 academic articles, (long), prepare questions for one of them, and write a short essay on the novela. In addition, I should work out and must plan lessons. So I am feeling under the gun to say the least, and when I get like this it's easy for my mental voice to shift to finger pointing and blame... on myself. But, I have to take this moment to be real about it. Friday just straight up sucked. I was extremely upset due to various reasons and just spent a fair amount of time crying, not doing anything. Saturday, yesterday, was not a bad day- Joe and I went to Drum Circle, he, John, and I ate lunch at Black Bear, and we went to a mini-party at Andy's. BUT... all day I had a miserable headache, and the time in between, between lunch and nighttime, I couldn't do any homework whatsoever. Honestly, if the headache hadn't been so present, I would have probably skipped going to Andy's and just done my reading. But it hurt so bad most of the day that I felt like throwing up. So yeah, I'm definitely behind and probably not going to get it all done this time around. That always stresses me out. Nothing has made me feel stupider than graduate school, and I know a lot of it has to do with how I struggle in Spanish. Still, I want to do well. But I may just have to get up, eat the pancakes and bacon John's in there fixing, get my shower, and just go get done whatever I'm able and try to BS through on that this week. So far this semester, I've read every single little thing I've been assigned, and that's saying something. I definitely am in severe need of Spring Break already. I. need. to. breathe.

But, good things, too... seeing everyone at Andy's last night was really great. I get to missing people. I think I hugged everyone goodbye, lol, which I don't usually do hugs, but why? I enjoyed the conversation and the laughter. A few bottles of Harp didn't hurt anything either.

Drum Circle was lots of fun, much moreso than I expected. But we really got a good jam session on. A little older lady who used to take my fitness classes was there, and she is just absolutely adorable on her drum. She breaks out in a huge smile, closes her eyes, picks up her arms, and starts dancing back and forth. There were six of us, and I am doing my best to badger people into coming next week so that we have a good crowd again. After drumming, I knew I should do some homework, but with the headache also knew I'd never be able to tolerate looking at text, so I suggested we do lunch at Black Bear instead. That was really nice, hadn't been there in awhile and hadn't really talked to Joe in awhile. It's been a few weeks since we've hung out.

So, still there were about 5 hours I could have done homework between eating and ice skating, but I was in so much pain. I just lay down and went to bed. Then there was a terrible wind storm, and I felt the trailer shaking. John and Joe were leaving to play badminton, and to be honest, I was scared to stay home alone in the storm, so I grabbed a swimsuit, and sat in the hot tub just trying not to be in pain anymore. After about 25 minutes and the new dose of ibuprofen setting in, I started to feel better. FINALLY. So we went ice skating as planned. Carly joined us, so we were four. That was fun. My former yoga instructor was there, and of course she is amazing on the ice. Always in teacher mode, she tried to teach Carly and me how to skate backwards. I got the hang of it after a few laps. Just stick your butt out and wiggle basically, lol. I would feel more comfortable going fast if the rink wasn't so crowded.

Okkkkkk... time to get out of this bed, eat breakfast, and get on with the work I know I'm not going to finish. Here's to being calm about that. Cheers.