Happy, sad, bored.

Sunday, February 13, 2011
3:51PM

I have been sitting in this futon/bed really just about all day reading for Latin American culture and grading compositions. I've taken a couple breaks to eat and hang out with John, but mostly I've just been doing this.

The weekend has been one of mixed emotions. Friday was great. My cousin Emily and three of her friends came and stayed over here, because they wanted to "go out in Morgantown." I went to the departmental party at Sidelines, drank a lot, sang some karaoke, and just enjoyed being out among friends. They always dance, even when there's no dancing, so that's great. I did three karaokes- "Roxie" (favorite), "What if it's you" and "Closer to Fine." Karaoke always cracks me up, taking turns being goofy and entertaining each other.

Saturday morning John left around 6am to go out in the field with Jim. Sounds like it was a cold, miserable day for him. I met Nelson on High Street at about 11:30am, and we went to Drum Circle together. It was another big crowd. This group wasn't as advanced, but it was still a great time. I just enjoy playing and everyone being in the music together. I was pretty wiped out from the night before, so I didn't do much work yesterday. Had lunch out with Emily, her friends, and Carly. I was napping when John got back.

The night got sad. I feel simultaneously outraged, helpless, and sad. I am convinced there is no real justice in operation in our world. And I don't believe in karma, so... it just is what it is, and it sucks is what it does. Don't want to go into it publicly, but positive energy and good thoughts/prayers are welcomed.

School has been... whatever. I'm bored of it. I'm still interested in what I'm doing, sure. But I'm like... ADD. I need to change activities frequently. I'm still into literature and learning Spanish, but it's hard to convince myself to leave my sketchbook, piano, drums, and dance shoes alone. I dreamt I was going to a physics class last night, and I was so excited to learn some math and science. There is no balance in this that I am doing right now. And I know we are a society that has created not only the ability, but also the necessity, to specialize. And I'm just getting... bored. I want to write poetry. I want to take kids backpacking. I want to climb up on a horse and ride crazy across a field again. Blah... putting my nose back to the grindstone.